Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Nothing.

I got my passport and visa back in the mail today and so everything is in place for my trip on Monday. Our kids have a somewhat low key week while I am gone so things should go smoothly for Adam since there will not be anything out of the ordinary to deal with. I continue to plug away at things for work that I would like to be ahead on before I go. I will stay busy the rest of this week as I have to be at the school tomorrow for Valentine's day activities in the K class and on Friday for a field trip. The weekend will be pretty quiet since several families from our "circle of friends" are going camping. We opted not to go back when the plans were being made in hopes of being in Russia...hmmm, I guess I will be afterall.

It is amazing to find myself in a kind of state of nothingness. I don't know really how to explain it except that I feel like I should be so excited to be going, and I am; But this trip is bittersweet. I begin to wonder if I will be better for it and yet I cannot imagine not going. And I cannot imagine coming home, again, without my child. I continue to tell myself that I have made it 2.5 months and upon my return from this trip, if all holds true, I will have less than that to wait to return for her.

Two and a half months is nothing, right?

2 comments:

Carey and Norman said...

As a mother waiting so many miles from their child, 2 1/2 months is a long time. I hope that your court date comes quickly after your trip, so you can be forever reunited.

I understand the bittersweet as we are so very excited to begin the journey to Russia to bring our daughter home, yet sad to leave our son behind. We knew this day would come, but it doesn't make leaving any easier.

Have a safe trip next week and I look forward to reading your posts!

3 became 4... said...

I understand what you're feeling... it was so hard to leave my baby even that one time. But I so desperately want to see him again. All I can do is cling with all my strength to Jesus.
I'm praying for a safe and blessed trip for you. One that will lift you up and keep you there until it can be forever.
In Christ,
Lyn Franks